I constantly question myself and often change my mind about many things overtime.
This is the main reason why I find it difficult or don't want to re-enter in contact with old friends.
Neither of us knows what has happened to the other in the meantime we've been apart,
so they would most likely think that I'm still the same I was back then.
At the same time, I don't know if they changed as well and how they changed. Especially when it comes to childhood friends,
because when you're a kid you do embarrassing things and argue with your friends for stupid things,
so who knows if they might have a bad opinion about you. For example, there's a girl I see almost everyday at the bus stop,
she was a close friend of mine when I was in elementary and middle school. Now, even if we look at each other, we ignore each other.
She's often with her classmates, so I don't know how they would perceive me. Although I would like to talk to her again,
at the same time I don't feel like I care that much about it anymore.